Solutions not Resolutions – Yikes!

January 12, 2013 at 12:05 am (horror, writing) (, , , , , , )

Do you know what’s sad? I can watch the scariest, goriest movie without batting an eye, I can cut myself and draw significant blood (accidentally, of course) and it does not faze me in the slightest, but any open wound on my loved ones turns me into a useless ball of mush. This is something as a responsible parent you don’t want to be doing – you want to be in complete control and come to that family member’s aid in as quickly and as expeditiously a manner as possible. I do try. I have driven my boy to the hospital before, to get stitches in his chin, but I was a shaky, fumbling mess the whole time.

I pulled a tack out of my foot today without a second thought, after driving it right in to the head. There was only a little blood. I threw on some antiseptic ointment and a bandage and it was no big deal. But last night my boy got a tiny cut on his head and that meant trouble. It wasn’t serious, but because there were tears and blood that was real and not mine, there I was again…goo.

I’ve had to envision horrible scenes for my stories, I’ve seen every Saw movie there is in all its graphic detail, but I can’t seem to cure myself of an inhibition to handle any cut worse than a scratch, or any damage worse than a bruise. Fate forbid I might find myself having to deal with a broken bone someday (I just knocked on wood …or the plywood conglomerate they use in furniture that passes for wood nowadays.) So much for the tough and gritty horror writer – eh?

And the worst part is, I can’t figure out a solution for this one. The only way to desensitize myself to such things would be repetitive exposure, and I certainly wouldn’t want that. In the end I guess I’ll just have to rely on my husband’s help with these events and admit there might be some issues I’ll never be able to completely conquer.



  1. Barbara said,

    Great blog post! 😉

  2. cherylmoore said,

    Ah it just means you love your babies! 🙂 I also go shaky when my son hurts himself. (Or if anyone hurts him) I’m very protective.

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